Posted in life, Reading Challenge

Happy (?) June!

It’s going to be a struggle to see June as anything resembling its usual positive self. But alas, the pages in the calendar keep turning and we’re finally into the sixth month of this hell year.

Weather you were here

Here in Scotland we’ve had a scorching weekend and it looks set to continue today. In fact, we’ve had some of the best and most consistent good weather in memory since lockdown began. If you’ve never been to Scotland during our normal three-day summer then I am sorry you are missing this. When the sun is out and everyone’s happy, we could rival anywhere in the Mediterranean. For a change I’m actually getting to enjoy the morning sunshine. Not a clue why I woke up before the ungodly hour of 8am, but I did and I’ve been in my study where the sun bakes the whole room at this time. So far managed to watch several episodes of Un Posto al Sole, did a morning Reiki wake-up meditation and read too.

Currently Reading

The two main books I’m ploughing through just now are Invisible Women by Caroline Criado Perez and Scusa Ma Ti Chiamo Amore by Federico Moccia. I read a lot in the garden the last few days I was out, it’s great just reading for fun; though the Invisible Women book does cause me to shout ‘What the fuck?!’ every five minutes. As with all plans, they are subject to change – for me depending on my mood.

Books I'm reading, Invisible Women by Caroline Criado Perez and Scusa Ma Ti Chiamo Amore by Federico Moccia.
Currently Reading June 2020

I woke with a hankering to read more of Trent’anni e una chiacchierata con papà by Tiziano Ferro. It’s the book of his diaries from before he was famous and throughout his dawning stardom. At times it is quite easy to read when he discusses travelling, living abroad, and having new adventures; at other times he becomes very poetic and wordy, especially during harder times, thus I need to have wordreference at the ready to try and understand. Still amazing though, so pure and human, warts and all – sometimes I feel as though I might have written parts of it, I understand so much of how he feels and has struggled with life.

One of my favourite quotes so far in the book, and a Spanish bus ticket from 5 years ago!

Work in Progress Forever

Now that it is a new month, even if it doesn’t feel it, I am trying to maintain a writing routine. Heck, any routine would be good right now. I’ve been jumping between studying Italian and Dutch, watching my Italian tv show, reading as many books as I can, blogging here and keeping up with my own novel. It’s going slowly but I’ve broken down the story into chapters and attempting to focus on a section at a time instead of worrying how it’s all going to fit together – or if it even will. That’s a job for editor Eliza, at a later point.

I’m off now to enjoy some sunshine and more Italian.

What are you reading? Have you been enjoying the good weather? Any plans for June?

e x

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Posted in Education, Languages, Musings, TV, University

I am Bing, hear me roar!

To describe myself in two fictional TV characters I am Chandler Bing and Josh Lyman. I’m the awkward sometimes comic (relief) with occasional strokes of genius but mostly strives to be a third fictional character: Rory Gilmore. However, my procrastination and housekeeping skills make me more like Lorelai Gilmore instead. (Not complaining, but I do sniff books).

I was never the brightest or most engaged at school. I was the day-dreamer, the creative type never more sparked than when doing something crafty with paper, writing never-ending stories, or learning classics (partially started from my love of TV Hercules). I dreamt of attending Hogwarts when I should have been studying for my standard grades, I got up early and won a competition to meet Linkin Park when I should have revised more for my computing exam that morning.

Eventually, after many years of studying various vocations, I made it into University but still comfort-binge-watched The West Wing and Gilmore Girls on repeat too many times. Like Chandler, not many people know exactly what I’ve done or could tell you what I do/have been doing (apparently I do too many things); and like Josh I’m good at my own things, my own interests and specialist fields but at school I really had to work twice as hard as everyone else just to reach my own level. It’s too easy to lament on this with ‘should have tried harder’, ‘should have been better’, ‘why did others get x?’ but it’s not healthy to compare oneself with other people. We’ve all had different upbringings and pasts, and some people are just naturally academic. Me, I like that I have a million interests. I do need to focus on adequate scheduling more though.

Now uni is over, we’ve all been set loose and free. Except, Brexit is happening, I’ve gone off the language I studied, I’m years older than my former classmates, many pounds heavier (and poorer), Jed Bartlett isn’t running for president and I’m not seeing waves of job opportunities now that I’m home.

So what now? Well, it’s 2017 might as well blog and perhaps find others in the same position.

Call me Lyman Bing now. The point is I’m not being self-deprecating I’m being realistic. I don’t want to do finance training and feel like a sell-out (to myself, not dissing those who do/like finance) or feel my soul seeping from my ribs in a mind-numbing job. I’m living at home because I can’t afford to live alone and because my mum is nice enough to take me back (♥), I can’t afford to have children nor get married (not that I would, that’s for a whole other post), and I’ll probably never buy a house… but it doesn’t matter, times are changing and I’m riding the waves as they come.

e x